Note to reader: I am using this space and place to post parts of a new slip-fiction novel series I am working on, Left Brain Right, the story of a young girl who hears voices. Left-Brain excerpts will be from her care-takers’ point of view or the point of view of the friends and family around her, while right-brain excerpts will describe how she sees the situation. I will not be posting the whole story, but I will be posting practical tips when dealing with someone, or one’s own self, as they are going through traumatic, or not so traumatic, experiences. Please note these are first rough drafts, so there may be spelling and/or grammatical errors.

© 2016 Jennifer Engel, All Rights Reserved, but feed back welcome.:)

How today’s story excerpt can help you:

Theme: “I am here: in peace and calm.  I am safe.”

Author’s Notes: I’ve been thinking a lot about mental and emotional health lately.  How it seems getting access to preventative mental and emotional breaks seems frustrating an inadequate.  I think I will rewrite almost all of my book to focus on specific strategies anyone can use to prevent mental and emotional health breaks, instead of focusing so much on fantasy.

In today’s story excerpt Michelle’s psychologist is beginning a guided visualization with her.

Left Brain: 

Progress Report: September 28th Compiled by Dr. Wong

Session Note:
Today was the first session in which guided visualization was used. See Transcript:
Dr. Wong: This guided visualization is going to be for dealing with fear.
We are going to use this to help your mind transform fear into courage and clam.
From negative images and thoughts, into positive images and thoughts.
You can also use this guided visualization for yourself, during your own mediation
sessions. Are you ready?

Michelle: Yes
Dr.Wong: Good. I am going to outline a map for you of what your journey will look like.
Remember, you are not alone. I am with you. We can not go anywhere you are not ready to go, and we will only face images that you are ready to face. There may be times, as you are facing your fear, or a past experience, where it feels very real and emotionally overwhelming, but I want you to try to remember those experiences happened in the past and they can not harm you here in the present. If at any time you feel overwhelmingly afraid, or stuck in a moment or place, we will work on orienting you to this present time. Let’s start by making yourself as comfortable as possible. Let’s take a few moments to breath. Breath with me as I count. Breathe in..1..2..3..4..5..hold…breath out..5..4..3..2..1.. Breath in 1..2..3..4..5.. hold…breathe out..5..4..3..2..1..
Breath in 1..2..3..4..5.. hold…breathe out..5..4..3..2..1..
Breath in 1..2..3..4..5.. hold…breathe out..5..4..3..2..1.. Good. Keep breathing.
Now, I as you breathe, I want you to picture placing yourself in a place where you are happy, and calm. Breath in 1..2..3..4..5.. hold..breath out…5..4..3..2..1.. float into that calm, happy place. (pause) Are you there?

Michelle: Yes.

Dr. Wong: Good. Hold that image of your clam, peaceful, happy place. Let’s stay here for a minute or two just enjoying all you see, hear, feel, and experience here. (a minute or two of silence). Okay, now, within his calm, happy place, I want you to find a movie projector. It needs to be in a place where you can project a movie from it. Can you do that?

Michelle: Yes.

Dr. Wong: Good. Now, I want you to find a chair next to the movie projector. You are going to sit in that chair and watch a movie. But before we do that, I want you to remember, you are the director, you are in control of the movie. You are only watching the movie, you are in in the movie. Can you remember that?

Michelle: Yes

Right Brain: 

Guided Visualization Session with Dr. Wong Cont…
September 28th.

Sitting in an empty room in my treehouse,
on my garden island,
next to a film projector I hear,
a voice floating in.

“As we turn on the projector,
and begin to watch the movie,
if you feel yourself being pulled in
I want you to clasp your hands together.

Do this now,
clasp your hands together,
rub them together quickly,
what do you feel?”

The fiction between my rubbing palms
created an electric,
I continue.

“Good. Now stop.
Place your hands comfortable at yours sides
or upon you chest,
there are there, if you need them.

Now, I am going to ask you
to turn on the projector,
the images may be sad or scary,
but you are not alone.

I am here with you.
It is okay to be uncomfortable
or scared, it is okay to look away
from the screen if you need to.

I turn on the projector,
and she here lying there.
and not breathing,

but I also see social workers
taking me away
from the only home, and person,
I have ever known and loved.

My heart is breaking,
and now I see
being taken to a stranger’s house,
that of my mother.